Discovering My Voice with Psilocybin

Reflection one year after a psychedelic women’s retreat

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Photo by Author — Dia de Muertos Altar

Introduction to the idea

I met retreat organizer, Jessica Grotfeldt, when I was in Oaxaca in March of 2019. She was new to Oaxaca, and I was there for workshops and to learn Spanish. She told me that she organized psychedelic retreats, describing mushrooms as sacred medicine — ritualistic, ceremonial, and used for healing, self-discovery, and growth. When she told me her story of surviving trauma, I was intrigued and mentioned that I would like to do it. She responded, “If you’re ready, she will call to you.”

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Photo by Gaelle Marcel on Unsplash

My Conscious Intention

When Jessica announced the Dia de Muertos retreat, I signed up right away and started to prepare, following her guidelines. One of the standard practices for a positive psychedelic experience is the importance of “set and setting.” Being primed internally (set) in a congruous external setting, is essential. Jessica gave us suggestions for journal-writing for preparing our “set” — our minds, our focus, our intentions.

The Setting

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Photo by Author — Morning Mist

The Medicine Knows

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Photo by Author — Candle Meditation

Jaguar Love

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Multi-sensory Vision

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Photo by Mohamed Nohassi on Unsplash

And So … ?

Did it change anything? Did it work? Did I get over that feeling of malaise? Of not being loved?

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Photo by Author — Sierra Norte Skies

What Next?

Will I continue to write now that we succeeded in voting him out? The Trump era exposed the deep-seated racism dividing the country; moral duplicity of his so-called Christian supporters who idolize this very un-Christian man; mass gullibility for conspiracy theories; need for media literacy and critical thinking; dehumanization of those who don’t see the world the way you do; and on and on. There’s a lot of work to be done.

Playwright, essayist, teacher, artist, songwriter, poet. Creativity Activist. Learn more: https://www.dianeaoki.com

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